I'm baaaaaaaack....

Baby ain't it somethin,'
How we lasted this long?
You and me,
Provin' everyone wrong.
Don't think we'll ever
Get our differences patched;
Don't really matter
'Cause we're perfectly matched.
- "Opposites Attract," Paula Abdul

Wow, the month is almost over. I've had major computer issues, and while I used to be able to blog from my work computer during lunch or before work, I have been SO busy this month (a co-worker is out on medical leave), that if I am sitting in front of my computer, I'm doing work. Frantically. End of story. Anyway, I traded in my old computer (I know, again) and bought a super cheap refurbished laptop on BestBuy.com. Doesn't have a lot of bells and whistles, but I'm out of school obviously, and just need it for internet and photo uploading. So now I can continue blogging regularly!

Even though I only have a week left of this month's resolutions, I'll go over what I put in my introduction post. And while I haven't been blogging, I have been trying to still work with my resolutions. So, since it's bee weeks since my last post, a refresher: Proofs of Love; Forget the Past; Love, as Is; Talk, Share, Explain.

- Proofs of Love: Matt and I don't get to see each other very often, and so I think we have to work harder at our relationship than a lot of couples because we only have two days a week to see each other, spend time together, and the rest of the week's communication is solely through talking on the phone and texting. And we're both on a limited budget, but I wanted to start doing small "proofs of love"...where I show that I care in small ways that still mean a lot. One Sunday, he left early for work, and before I left that evening, I made his bed, put away all his clean laundry, picked up his room, and left a paper that said "I love you!" sitting on his computer keyboard, where he was sure to see it when he came home. Of course, when he came home later that week, he had two friends with him that made fun of him as soon as they saw the note, but he made sure to tell me on the phone that night how much it had meant to him and he still has it. =) This past weekend, I was out of town all weekend...the night before I left, I fixed a pasta bake for him to have in the fridge all weekend so he'd have something to eat. Just little small things, but that meant a lot to him.

- Forget the Past: The biggest one I struggle with. I was planning on having a long "story of us" post, which I would still like to do, but probably will not come until next week. Reader's Digest Version: this is the second half of our relationship and the first half wasn't great. He broke my heart last year, we went through a lot, then got back together right before the new year. This year, he's completely different. Such an amazing, wonderful boyfriend that sometimes it's hard to believe he's the same person (even he thinks that)...but the fact is, he is the same person (literally, not figureatively like now), and sometimes I struggle with the hurt from last year that I sometimes cannot seem to shake off. More on that later, because I have been reading a lot of "zen" stuff lately on forgiveness that I want to share.

- Love, as Is: Kind of jokingly, I made this month's theme song "Opposites Attract" by Paula Abdul. Funnily enough, the lyrics are exactly us. He's loud, I can be more quiet. He's messy, I'm clean. He loves movies, I'm addicted to TV series. In person though, before you get to all that stuff, we are very different. He has a lip ring, has a mohawk off and on, wears gamer shirts and DC skater shoes. I'm more preppy and wear suits to work. The differences don't bother me and I rarely notice them until they're pointed out to me. We have different opinions a lot of the time because of how we were raised and the things we've experienced in life, and different interests that cause us to want to spend our time differently. We frustrate each other to no end, and sometimes I ask him to change his shirt before going to a family function, or ask if he'll do something a certain way, etc. At the end of the day though, I still love him, and wearing a zombie t-shirt to Easter isn't going to change that.

- Talk, Share, Explain: Even though I'm a girl, I suck at the communicating thing. When I'm upset or angry, I just shut down and shut people out. One of the ways I've been trying to work on our relationship is actually talking about issues, sharing what I'm upset about, and explain why I feel a certain way.

A conversation a few weeks ago...

"You're being mean." - Matt
"So?" - me
"I thought this month was about me!" - Matt
"Shut up." - me